Jade Goody May Die On Reality Television

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February 15, 2009 at 12:06 pm By Danity
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Jade Goody believed in miracles. She believed that with hope and faith anyone could beat anything thrown at them…until now. After a grueling battle with cancer, Jade Goody has made the decision to go home to die in the company of her family. In an exclusive interview with the News of The World, Jade talks candidly about her thoughts of the future, her plans to get married and the possibility of dying on her reality television show.

ON FINDING OUT THERE WASN’T ANYTHING MORE THE DOCTORS COULD DO FOR HER:

“I couldn’t breathe when they told me. I just screamed and cried and said, ‘Can’t anyone do anything to help me!’ Because a few weeks ago when they first told me the chemo hadn’t worked they said it didn’t have to be the end. They said there were lots of other medicines out there and there were other things they could do. I know they’ve done everything they can to help me and I’m grateful. But I really thought I might be OK.

“And I believed them. And there they were telling me it was the end. I didn’t want to believe it. I’m not blaming them. I know they’ve done everything they can to help me and I’m grateful. But I really thought I might be OK. But, I suppose there was this little part of me that didn’t. Since my bowel operation last week the pain has been getting worse and worse and I still haven’t been to the loo and I knew that was a bad sign. But I was still praying for a miracle.”

“I rang Jack immediately and he came running in. He was crying and so very upset. He just kept saying, ‘All that chemo, all that pain and it was all for nothing’. He refused to accept it at first and he and the rest of the family started talking about getting me on a plane to America.

“They kept telling me they can do amazing things over there and that maybe there is some miracle cure that we don’t know about.

“But as I listened to them I just kept thinking, ‘It’s too late for me. My time has run out.’ All I want to do now is spend whatever time I have left with Jack and the kids.

ON GETTING MARRIED BEFORE SHE DIES:

“You know, when Jack came out of prison he had no idea how sick I was. And I know this is hard for him because he expected to get me back. He expected the chemo to work and that we’d have a life together as a family. “But I swear we WILL be a family before I die—just not for as long as I’d have hoped.

“I love Jack with all my heart and I want to be his wife more than anything in the world. And I will be.

“He’s devastated but he’s really trying to hold it together for me. But as soon as he found out I was going to die he just said, ‘Right then we’re getting married. You’re a special woman, I love you and I would be honored to call you my wife. And I don’t care if it’s just for a few weeks’.”

ON WHY SHE’S TOO YOUNG TO DIE:

“I want to ask God why he couldn’t have given me more time with my boys. Just a bit—just enough to hear them laugh a few more times, to see that they’re happy, to write them long letters so I can tell them who I was and how much I loved them and remind them about all the things we did together.
Because they might forget me. And I can’t bear the thought of that.

“I’ve decided I’m going to make them a Memory Box and put in lots of things that will remind them of me and what we did together. And maybe when they’re older it will help them remember.”

ON HER PLANS FOR HER BOYS:

“When I first knew I had cancer I worked out a strategy. I thought if I earn enough money while I’m sick there will be enough for them to go to private school until they are 18. I know people think I’m betraying my roots by sending them to a private school but I want them to have the very best chance in life they can have. And that’s what my money is for. What’s the point of everything I have if I can’t do that for them?”

This just breaks my heart. Jade is an inspiration and will be for the remainder of her days on Earth and for the years to come.